A little preface: This is an insomnia and prompt driven blurb… The prompt suggested that I write about how life would be easier with nobody to share it with. This is what I came up with–
I push people away because it’s easier. If you let someone in even a little bit, it gets complicated. You either have to let them have access to everything in your life, or you have to be constantly monitoring where and when to put your guard up or take it down. If you put it up or take it down at the wrong time, or in the wrong place, you start to scare the other person away. I think that hurts a lot more than pushing then away in the first place. At least in that case it’s self inflicted and doesn’t involve anyone you may have opened yourself up to hurting you against your will.
Then again, the worst pains are the ones we inflict upon ourselves.